Playing the Waiting Game

Well Ally had her immunization shots last night. She now has a slight fever. Which makes me a little worried. She is not doing as awesome as she was the first time with her feeds. So far the only large amount that she has taken from the bottle is 23 ccms. She needs to be up to 60. Plus she still is on Adivan but is only taking it every 6 hours instead of 8 and she Morphine has been discontinued. I guess I am being impationt with the the whole thing but I really want her to come home. On a better note, maybe it is good that she isn't home yet. I have been sick with the stomach flu, hay fever, and now a cold and can't seem to get rid of them. I am sick of being sick. I can't seem to get restful sleep and always wake up exsausted. I can hardly stay awake at work. Plus post pardom depresion has reared its ugly head. (which I am now on more medication for) I also feel a little guilty. Should I be spending more time with Ally? Am I a good mom. Needless to say I am very stressed out even when I am at the hospital. I keep hoping and praying that when I call everyday @ 6 and 11 they will say that she can go on a picknick. We are now playing the waiting game.